I left my job as a Letter Carrier to focus on my bulimia recovery and mental health.
I took a big step recently towards improving my quality of life. I left my job as a Letter Carrier to focus on my bulimia recovery and mental health. I will miss the community where I spent the last year dearly. After five years of various physically focused employment and five years of bulimia, it was time to make a change, and so I did. I am now delivering food for Uber Eats while I seek out new employment opportunities. I am also living in a way I never have before. I am happy and healthy.
So, why did I leave a stable career with benefits and security? To live my life and pull myself out from the dark place I found myself. The job alone was not solely responsible for the darkness, but it made it the task challenging. I didn’t know how to take care of my self; to stay adequately hydrated, nourished, and rested with a job so physically demanding. Along with being physically drained, I would find myself mentally exhausted. Small things would set off anxiety attacks, my thoughts would scatter, and I would overanalyze everything. The funny thing is, before I started my path to recovery, I could handle my job. I don’t understand the reasoning behind this, but I was struggling to find balance.
I reached a burnout. The factors in my life were building up until I found myself lost in the darkness. I felt weak; physically weak, and disappointed in myself that I couldn’t fulfill the responsibilities of my job. It has been just over a week since I left my job, and some light is shining through again. I am scared about this next step but also eager to move forward; to work through my mental health, and to find work and a lifestyle where I can remain healthy.
Out from the dark and into the unknown, here’s to living.
Thank you for reading, all the best to you all.